For those of you who really know me, you know that I am no fan to change.  I've had
the same cell phone number and been with Sprint for 15 years because I'm no good
at change.  This dislike for change is what led me back to the Hilltop YMCA. 
After I had Marcus (15), I became a member, and continued to be a member until
he was about 7 or 8.  Then it got to be too expensive ($54 a month), so I
started working out at my parents' house.  My dad has a really good treadmill
and bike.  Just recently about three months ago, I decided I was ready to get
back into the gym, so I went back to the YMCA now $81 a month.  I haven't gone
as much as I would like, but have made a conscious effort to really be
consistent in going.  That being said.
I'm there this morning, a...fter the most hectic hour of my day, (getting the kids
ready and taking them to school).  I had my ear phones on and was feeling some
old "Amerie," this was the CD that came out around the time Bobby and I first
started dating, it was bringing back some great memories, so you know I was in
there feeling it.    I might have been singing a little, but not more than a
loud whisper.  The guy working there comes to me and taps me on my shoulder,
mind you I'm on the treadmill and he surprised me.  He says, "can you lower it
down a little?"  I said, "Me? oh my gosh, I thought I was lip syncing," honestly
I didn't know I was that loud and I apologized.  But what I didn't like is what
he said next.  "No, I can hear you all the way in my office, and everyone else
in hear can hear you too." "Excuese me?" is what I was thinking to myself.  
Mind you, most people were wearing ear phones, the other people were elderly, so
I get it, maybe I was too loud, but his smart "alec" comment wasn't necessary. 
But it got me thinking.  Maybe it's time for a change.  I'm only 35 years
"young," do I really want to work out in a "senior citizen" atmosphere? 
Additionally, do I want to continue pay a whopping $81 dollars a month to have
another employee put a damper on the only 35 min to an hour of peace and a
relief from stress that I have?  I'm really considering changing gyms, and it's
kind of a shame, I have such fond memories of that YMCA when my older kids were
young, but everything changes.  YMCA certainly has in the 7 years I was gone. 
So maybe it's time for me to change too.

 Hi Everyone, wow, it has been a hectic week with kids and
work.  I was in court two times this week and last week, trying to figure out
lunches and snacks, should we pack or buy?  Trying to get kids back and forth,
here and there.  We had a birthday yesterday, (Mason turned 4), it's just been
absolutely crazy.  But what really had me going was the question of "is my
husband really fixed?"
Most of you know that I had a hard pregnancy and an
emergency C-section with our youngest Maximillian, (16 months).   It was because
of this that my husband stepped up and "took one for the team," and got a
vasectomy.  That was great, it meant that I didn't have to get a more difficult
procedure in getting my tubes tied.  Since then my "friend," (menstrual cycle)
has been coming ever...y
28 days on the DOT!  Not this month.  On the 29th day I was on the internet
researching how reliable a vasectomy really was, and I was terrified after all
the information I read.  Women, were getting pregnant left and right, and even
years after their husbands got vasectomies.  I also read that up to 1% of men
who get vasectomies aren't completely sterile. I couldn't believe it.  Could I
be pregnant?  I couldn't imagine having another baby at this point in my life.

I had to tell Bobby how I was feeling. I asked him what we would do if I
was pregnant again?  The look on his face, (lol).  I was really nervous, I mean
of course if it was meant to be, we would just have to deal with it, but I
didn't even want to think about tipping 200 pounds on the scale again, breast
feeding again, we just got Max to start sleeping in his bed part of the night. 
Mason still sleeps with us all night, and Malachi comes in our room in the
middle of the night and sleeps on a little couch.  Thinking about adding another
kid to that had me going crazy. 
The 30th day came, and by then I was
convinced it was happening.  We were going to have another baby.  We were going
to have to buy all new baby clothes since we have finally gotten rid of the ones
we had for the last four kids.  I was convinced I was getting ready to gain
another 30 pounds, hopefully it wouldn't be another 60 pounds.  And
then........................it came.
  My friend arrived, I sent a text to Bobby letting him know that our friend had
arrived and he responded,"woo hoo."  lol, It was a good day, in the midst of "My
Crazy Life."